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[29 Mar 2006|11:31am] [ mood | i hate him! ] [ music | savin me --nickelback ] so this isnt fun. today was pretty bad ...my world history teacher came up to me and said "i guess my opion about you cant get any lower"...thats nice to hear...actually thats all i want to hear right now..how i messed up. yeha i know! thanks...i really didnt want to mess up, but i cant take it back. stupid lil things right? i told him str8 up.."mr nesselroth, you think i didnt know i messed up when i woke up in the hopsital hooked onto a machine to help me breathe". watev. sooner or later its gonna be over...this just shows how little some people are...i gotta alot of shit for it but its cool... ..whats not cool is my best freind almost died this weekend too. she called my coach and cried to him...i cant stop throwing up...i wish i was there for her. her parents were outa town too. =/ nothing to update about anymore..im trying to cut down on the internet and work on school . ya kno. so im prob deleting this soon. muchlove. 2 ♥ love me

[22 Mar 2006|11:29am] im glad were friends again.   =D!! maybe one day, things will be like they used to maybe... 2 ♥ love me

damn i got stiffed hard =/ [17 Mar 2006|08:57pm] i never thought id live this life i never thought that i could i never really woke up i guess now maybe i should. but if its to feel such pain id do better without cause in my dreams im hurting. when i wake up i shout. i never thought id die this way i never thought it would come but i never thought it would feel so good to just be so done. 2 ♥ love me

[10 Mar 2006|11:45am] ok so im in class with 5 minutes to spare. so i decided to update. umm everythings good and bad...i got new freinds whom i really care for and i lost freinds whom i really carED for. life goes on i guess... ok g2g teachers yelling muhclove niggah =P 1 ♥ love me

[04 Feb 2006|07:51pm] so i just got grounded becuase of the grades...yeah i know i gotta pull those up =/ i think i might start writing in this lil livejournal a little more. i mean i write in my diary every day now, so i guess sharing a little bit of my life wouldnt hurt. so i dont think ive ever went this long without no even thinking about hooking up with a guy or like someone for that matter....kinda wierdy, i dont know if its im not in the mood or just im not caring at all for now. i got back from puerto rico and whoa was it crazy over there...its so different, its just beautful. im going back there soon but for vacation this time and not waterpolo, i loved the place so much...the beaches where the best part. i think the waves were better in PR than the one i rode in cali, so nice =) umm i deff have to get a new job...im applyin to FRIDAYS and APPLEBEES and idk where else but i cant stand albertsons...its sofaking gay! i hate it! i have so many pictures from puerto rico i wanna post and once i go get my new camera ill b able to do that buttt uhh...yeah bye tdbh<3 love me

[01 Feb 2006|08:03am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | alex fabian ] high skewl waterpolo is starting up. pretty cool. i got a truck. pretty awsome. im 16 now! pretty exciting. my big party is coming soon. pretty sawweet. i have the bestfreinds i could ever ask for. pretty amazing =)   ...last night i went to firehouse subs with danielle and liljon and marcelo and scott and then to coldstones for a lil birthday dinner thing =) those are my 2 favorite places to eat =P...i got my happy birthday call from my hoe tom...which made my day...and i got so many texts message and fone calls on my birthday which ment alot i hope my party is gonna be better than my birthday was tho im sure it will be tho, i mean who dosent like dancing and other stuff **wink wink** 3 ♥ love me

[31 Jan 2006|08:33am] i love garrett hann and alex fabian!! 14 ♥ love me

one shot is all uve ever got. [22 Jan 2006|03:58pm] In places no one will find All your feelings so deep inside Was there that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry... 1 ♥ love me

[06 Nov 2005|07:49pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | *ironic* alanis morrisette ] you know that feeling you get when someone goes away for a long long time and there coming back...do you wish everything was the same? or do you start all over again? im getting into the confusing state...bcuz i havent forgotten anything about this sumone..but i dont know if there the same way... see he moved away...he was put into a new enviroment with new people to cope with...but me...i was left in the dark...a piece of me taken with him...my personality broken...cause it hasnt been the same...its ironic...one comes and one goes...one comes and another goes...and it alwaz seems to be the closest one to me... i havent realli spoken to him because the lack of being able to contact one another...its been...2 years...i just hope things go back to how they were...or dont i?...i just dont know whether to except the fact that he will have changed....i guess thats why im the saddest of kiki moving...because she will change...you will say best freinds forever, never will it change, but realistically, shes moving to the other side of the country and shell hang out with girls her age and forget about me...i cry so much when i think about it...just lik i did when he finally moved away...now its happening again...but what would be of me and kiki when we meet up again...i dont think things will b as they where...they couldnt possably be...because ill will be doing all the missing and she will be doing all the learning...shell adapt to the new life and take it as it has been that way forever...and ill pop in her mine and she'll remember but only for that night...and i will be yet another whisper in the next year...we were gonna go place to together, see the world, be in the oylimpics together...i guess we'll just be happy for each other when things happen i dont want to say it...but our freindship is already falling apart...it fuckin sucks so much...because i already miss her yet she lives 15 mins away...   "life has its funny way of helping you out"   no need for comments because a AW or a O would show a lil bit of..nothing 6 ♥ love me

[10 Oct 2005|08:09am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | fat chick fighting ] to start off with....IM SUPER COLD ihateskewl....BECUZ I FAIL IT AND BCUZ IM ALWAZ COLD if skewl wasnt as cold then it would be lik 50% better....but its gay like that.   mine n mj and sally n stephens 1 month next monday....o0o0 la la this weekend was freakin UH-MaZiNg!!!...i got to spend time with my miami girls and i got back into waterpolo since my accident....and everything is just swell..... except the AX-E-DENT i made this weekend....falling for my X again....everytime i see him...i feel love again...I KNOW! i shouldnt even be thinking about this bcuz i have a booyfreind again...but ahhh i miss the old days... tucker is moving away...DEPRESSING life....UPSETTING later   note to self*SFP* which pill dissolves fast....? 5 ♥ love me

[04 Oct 2005|09:44pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | i cant ] ok i have this problem.... my freinds fighting my freinds in general my freinds and my freinds happy birthday megan erin <3 im sorry to my freinds... 7 ♥ love me

[27 Sep 2005|10:22pm] [ mood | fuck a nigga dick! ] [ music | three 6 mafia ** stay fly ** ] wake up wake up! you guys are living in a unrealistic world -nothing comes easy -noone will always care -things you do wrong will mold the rest of your life -things you do right will be forgotten in time because of others accomplishments -you will only wish to be freinds forever -people arent bitches...there just, people -love only comes once -your parents will love you no matter how fucked up you are -rich people are the kings and queens of our days -thr truth doesnt exsist any more...     yeah...   emily becks is a fuckin g unit   kkk remeber ** gotta stay fly i i i i i i i i till i die i i i i i i i **   one love!   8 ♥ love me

[20 Sep 2005|07:03pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | turn up that reggaton <33 ] tell us 20 things about you and then tag 6 others to do it. 1. Im 15 2. I play waterpolo 3. Ive been playing for about 8 years 4. Im a softmore @ south plantation 5. next year i will be transferring schools 6. I have more muscles then the average girl 7. I like hangin out with guys more then girls 8. I love gaderade! 9. I love eminem 10.I love techno 11.I love fast cars and im race them when i get my liceanse and ima kill the guys! 12.Ericka Lorenz is my HERO.IDOL.LIFE 13.KIKI is my best friend like for ev er! 14.I love california 15.I have a boyfreind 16.I want to be a pilot when i grow up 17.Or i want to be a asasian 18.Im gonna be in the oylimpics 19.Music is my refuge 20.I love PAUL WALKER i cant really tage ne one...cuz everyones done this,...o well i tag 6 ppl that HAVNT already been tagged of did this =) 6 ♥ love me

[11 Sep 2005|11:09pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | mount sims--how we do-- ] i was talking about it tonight...and i guess my biggest fear in life isnt not being accepted...or not making it in the waterpolo world or not successing in life the way other think i should have...but i would have to say DEATH is my biggest fear....i kno stupid me...its gonna happen..what if it happens tomarroe or after i push *update jounral* sucks to know that ull never kno when its gonna happen..i think that scares me more....cause i wanna do so much with my life...but wat if i cant cuz i die of sum terriable disease or im murdered or im in a car accident or fire?...how death happens even is scarey...at night i think about it all the time..or when im just alaone....listen... to just think about ure life...and then think about other peoples lives and how you runn your own body...then think about not breathing anymore...yeah...it sucks to have this in your dreams every night...i guess thats why i stay up so long at night...cuz i dont want to have to think about death...well idk...im not God..i can say im not a doctor..but what do they kno...God is the one who desides wrong from right...yes to no...and living to death so many people have left me and you...and i would have to say i wish they wouldnt have but what we have to realize is that..that would be selfish...SELFISH? yes selfish...the reason for death is for you to be something bigger and better somewhere else...if my mother or father or brothers or sister died right now..i would feel lik...well like...life has bin altered in so many ways...it just becomes so complicated so where i just dont want to live anymore...but God would alwaz let me know...that it was the time to be somthing greater then the sun and the stars and every world beyond ours =/ the only part that i would never understand is why god would chose for me to live a suffered life..knowing that i would never have my mother and father to guide me and my brothers and sister to show me the best times in life i dont know how people can deal with death untill tonight...when a freind of mine explain it to me very clearly....he told me...not to be scared cause when its your time to go..you'll be ready...it could be tonight or tomarrow...or in 50 years...but God only lets you leave when he knows that you did your job...now ive heard that a millon times..but when he said it to me..it finally clicked...his mother died last year and he knew it was her time to go..he didnt want to see her suffer anymore so he just knew it was for the  better that she went... to leave my family and freinds would be something ill have to accept....   i know ive made everyone i practically know laugh or happier and yeah..i would just lik to thank you all     emo out..time to press update jounral =/ 7 ♥ love me

[08 Sep 2005|12:12am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | fall out boy **dance dance** ] 1. Go here. 2. Pass it on. ( my answers ) 8 ♥ love me

[06 Sep 2005|08:13am] [ mood | tannerislove! ] [ music | tanner tellin me im awsome ] i have 1 thing to say....well alot of one thing but..well newayz...im sry and i love u   freinds are the most important in life and 2 make one or 2 or 3 or 4 sadd...its not a good thing   kthanksbye. 4 ♥ love me

[23 Aug 2005|10:36pm] [ mood | i b chill...wannting him =) ] [ music | bitter sweet symphony *verve* ] ok for a few friends...things dont alwaz work out the way you want them to...get over it! kthanks =)   now 4 my entry...*homecoming* yeha i kno y is CC the tomboy talkin about homecoming..she dosent wear dresses..blah blah blah..but umm i dont think wat im worried about isnt homecoming..cuz id be perfectly ok with goin with my besties =) ne day <3 i think its more about the guy...yes him...well 2 guys..one walked in exspecting everything to be the same and the other one i walked out on and want him back well kinda... =/ 00o0o0o kkkkay sadness over..cuz i beat my self up 4 it...o yeah by the way there 2 very different ppl...which make life changing things occure...eeash =/ skewls just grand...not....when is i ever...o well..i love my 3rd hour to death =) i love megan erin beckham too =) <3 i love my bestfreind kiki ill miss ya even tho we dont hang out ne more you made me wat i am today..and that i thank you 4 =) BFFaEaEaEaEAEWWIH <3333   jangster n cangster love <3 MeeShee n CeeCee** Mini Me n Dr.CC =) just randomness...rember names i have with freinds =) there more but i have to pee..then watch TV..then eat..so i cant do ne more   niggah fuck wat chu want !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   i love my besties u kno who u r! and if u want to fight me....lets go niggah..cuz i have no problem fuckin you up infront of everyone   kthanksbye. =D       10 ♥ love me

[10 Aug 2005|07:09pm] [ mood | this is wat it is =) ] [ music | california babylon *transplant* ] new skewl year new shit happening new freinds...well ill just b chillin with other ppl more   ya kno' new crush new errveything =)   ummmm california was amazing!!! i loved it..all of it...except the sun blister i got on my lips eek....mucho hurto ..o well it will b goen by next week..=)   i love my classes and sumone in them =) i love my lunch...back with mishi n tyler and now jojo n emily! but im missing jeremy so much! i love 3rd hour n 4th hour and 6th and 6th hour oman skewls really kewl this year     newayz...ummm im a softmore =) and i get my licence feb 16 hehe =) but i was just informed i dont get a car till im 17 cuz my brother didnt get his awesome car till he was 17...maybit that will change =) hehe but if need i have sum cars aviable 4 my used lik and ugly ass funny ass 84 pick up haha its so gunit...its ghetto small and loud as fuck!!..stick stift..so i must master that too..but yeah..i wont b the queen of south racing until NEXT year....suckage 4 me =/   i love life...kinda sad sum ppl arent in it right now...but its all california babylon =)   FUCK NIGGAHS =P 10 ♥ love me

summer is over out with the old in with the new niggahs!!! [31 Jul 2005|02:48am] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | FEEL GOOD INC..GORILLAS ] WATERPOLO 24/7/365    =) okk i am so tottally stoaked 4 skewl to come back..or not really skewl...but the life im used to...being around freinds all day and getting into trouble 24/7 by fag ass teachers... summer was funn but im over it..i wanna quickly get through high skewl and move on...the faster the better =)...i wanna see the freinds i havent seen, i wanna know who ill b having in my classes this year...and wat teachers ill be giving a run 4 there money =P...im kinda maturing tho...many of u think im the crazy kid CC..and yeah it appears that way...but i dont feal that way.... im not like every other kid...every other kid dosent have a life consumed by one thing...myne is waterpolo it has taken up more than half my time this summer and u kno what..i couldnt be happier!!..its wat i love...wat i really really love!!..i hope doing all this hard work pays off and i get sum where with it..cuz already 8 year of my life have gone towards waterpolo...my whole life into the water...bcuz b4 waterpolo it was strict swimming... >water girl< gotta love it i bonded really close with a few people this summer and others over this past skewl year...really gladd too...people i kno i will b with 4 the rest of this life here in florida... >britty t<>mishi<>emily becks<>lauren liljon<>juice<>taylor w<>brittnee m<>now jojo too!<....its great to kno u have a few of those special friends =) i gotta few regrets this year..one toward a good girlfreind of mine. another to a good guyfreind of mine. SRY! <3   im goin back to california on wednesday for a very big turnoment called junior olympics...wish me luck cuz ill need it cuz my dumbass broke my finger a week ago...yeah   thanks 4 listening and this livejournal thing is coming to a end very soon but other than that... i love you all <3   comment please!! <3   im pretty good with all the gayness cuz all i do is...sit back take a puff and i str8 ****rember that niggah!!**** 21 ♥ love me

[21 Jul 2005|03:52pm] [ mood | my broken fucking finger!! ] [ music | la tortura **shakira** ] FL COAST HOTTIES on HUNINGTON BEACH owning!!!...>>can u find me<< hint..wearing a yellow thing on my ankle** =) =) =) meh*guy*arianna*guy*angie IN-N-OUT **silver reppin**   i would put other pics in but my finger is hurtin way to much right now 4 me to do that...ahhh..im shoot myself   3 ♥ love me

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